i dont know if ive already written about this before but theres this fcking building across the river that i can see from my room that always has a erratically blinking light in one of the rooms in the top floor and it makes me so!!angry!!! bc i feel like its some kind if message that i cant understand.. ive tried to tell my parents about it but im looking at it right now as i type this and i forgot how mad i get thinking about it
Have you ever had a seizure? I’ve had some minor ones over the years that I didn’t recognize as such at the time. One night I was downstairs in the hallway and I noticed a flickering light in my parent’s room upstairs. One of the lamps on my mother’s dresser had a loose bulb and it was flickering on and off rapidly. When I walked into the room to see what was going on I felt a sudden presence in and around me coming from the mirror behind the lamp. I was just frozen in place for a while afraid to move. I don’t remember how many seconds it took me to gather the will to march forward and turn the lamp off then screw the bulb in tighter. I felt like I would “anger” something by ending this spell even as I tried to rationalize it in my mind as just a figment of my imagination.
Or did you mean more of a looking for patterns in white noise kind of thing? I do that too, subconsciously. I had to train my consciousness to ignore it for the most part. Otherwise all the faces I see on white walls or in the dark would have driven me mad years ago.